Mind Games!

My mind is adept at playing games with me, follows no rules, and wields a power so strong,

  the darkness of its depth leaves me petrified, I writhe under its sting, the pain seems unbearable

sometimes it shrivels like a deflated balloon, but mostly it swells up in haughty pride

 it conjures up the wiliest thoughts, cementing it with resolute conviction and barricading it with an inflated ego.

I am blinded in a haze when it showers missiles of fear.

Wallowing in self-doubt, I feel like a hapless pawn under its clutches.

It is only when its sublime qualities come to fore, it rings in bells of happiness

  I love its mellowed persona, when I get to be Me, revelling in a euphoric bubble, afraid that it may burst anytime.

After long battle of trying to gain control over my mind,

I have realized, its mercurial temperament is fraught with multifarious layers.

Demons and angels both reside in there, only whom I feed, grows!

Reena’s Xploration Challenge #235